Our Ultrasound

Yesterday, Jeff and I went down town for a Level 2 ultrasound. I guess we have to be intensely followed because we do have a child with a "birth defect". Well, our baby got its first pictures taken and everything was measured. I have such a hard time with this. They were not able to check for cleft lip yet but they did seem to check for everything else. Our risk for all defects is not any higher than anyone else's. Our chance of having a baby with a cleft lip is 2%. I do not see the point of going through this unnecessary worry. I also took a blood test and they will combine that result with the ultrasound, factor in my age, and then tell me the chance of having a child with down syndrome. They will say you have a 1 in 500 chance or a 1 in 10 chance. Are you kidding me? All of these tests just to give me a range of my chances. What is all of this for? I think I know. They hinted at the fact that many people will be able to know within a week, so that they can take the appropriate measures. I am 14 weeks and in the second trimester! It breaks my heart to think of all of the parents who make decisions with these results that cost a baby its life. We were able to see the baby sucking its thumb. We were told that we may find out what we were having, but we saw no visible proof to make a definite call.:) One funny thing was when the nurse told us that cleft lip is just a surgery and you're done. Jeff and I looked at each other and smiled. We know all too well that that this is not quite the truth, at least not in our case. We were told that when we found out Sam had a cleft lip and we partially believed it. Yes, we have learned so much through Sam and are still learning just how sufficient God's grace is to us. But, it wasn't and isn't easy. I hate that ultrasounds are not the exciting thing to me as they are to most people. I think too much of what may go wrong or what they could find. Most people go to them without giving it a second thought. Why can't I just go and not be nauseated the whole way there?